My Blog

The first blog I ever wrote was called Mayhem. It was a description of the worst panic attack I have ever had.

How my car breaking down nearly led to a breakdown!

As the afternoon turned into evening my commentary began.... That's the doctors closing. That's the pharmacy shut.

I'm gonna be a good Mum. I've read tons of books and have so much love to give what could possibly go wrong? Within hours of giving birth...

What if I can't get up? What if I'm too tired to get through the day?

It was as if time stopped and I was stuck in this one moment.

How often do you ask yourself that question....alot?

'Yes you are adopted'. (FYI whenever I say parents I am referring to my adoptive parents❤) A Girly Gift or Reject? At the age of 6 weeks...

The first time I was told to find things I was grateful for I was totally pissed off! Why? Because being grateful felt impossible!

Deep down, where I rarely go, it's there, the sense that something is missing and it makes me sad.

This saying really bugs me, in fact it makes me angry. I get the gist behind it...you know ...that you don't have to feel ok all the...

So how have things been? Not bad considering there are lots of changes happening at the mo. Building work in the house and new job...

Something I notice when I feel low is that I feel I am totally alone. No one understands. No one cares. No one can see my isolation or...

Let me introduce Sludge. Sludge is a big gooey mass of negativity always on the lookout for victims. Now for writing this Sludge is a'...